I find myself in an odd place today, for reasons that remain unclear at this point.
Maybe it is the sudden change in weather that has caused me to be reflective.
Perhaps it is the lack of sleep last night that let the wandering thoughts run rampant, thus running into my overall mood today.
Perhaps it is my overall frustration with myself, with my lack of motivation, my lack of will power and clarity.
I hate this mood. It is all encompassing and strangles my soul.
I cannot wait to be home, to hug my Cub.
I cannot wait to have the man I love wrap his arms around me and tell me everything will be alright and that I am allowed to have a bad day.
Til tomorrow!

Life has been pretty mundane around these here parts as of late. We here in the the AA household are coming down from an 'eventful' summer.  The man I married and I have traveled over 10,00km this summer. That is a lot of ass miles! Which could help explain perhaps exactly why my ass feels like it has expanded. Well, that and the copious amounts of Vodka that has been consumed. 
The summer recap-We started off with a trip out to Saskatchewan to visit Admin and family, which was one wicked way to kick start our summer.
Cub spent 3 weeks without us. Or more like we spent 3 weeks without our Cub. He of course fared much better than his parents. He was with his Grandparents (both sets) Cousins and numerous Aunts and Uncles. His parents started to mope around week 2, you know after we spent a whole week reconnecting and making some emotional deposits into our marriage bank account.
We took a week off and took the boy (and cousin) camping - twas a good time, but we only ended up spending 3 days at the lake. The weather was awesome! Our boating experience was not. Suffice it to say that I would much rather end up driving a boat than paddling it back to the dock!
We then headed down to visit my 90 year old Grandmother for her surprise birthday party. We took my parents with us in the same vehicle.That was a rocking good time of the holy hell do I not want to do that anytime soon again kind.
Then we came home.
Now we are back to school and the 'normalcy' that is our house. You know, same old same old. In fact it has taken me several weeks to just muster up enough gumption to get on here to just write. No matter how boring I think it sounds ( and I KNOW IT IS..it's alright...really) 
Cub started grade 3 this year, and we have already been dealing with a bully issue (left over from grade 1, but now they are in the same class)  We have been trying to decide if we want to move the Cub out of the class and into a new one, where he won't have to see the Bully every day. We've been trying to make an informed decision in this regard, and it dawned on me to actually ask the Cub what he wanted to do... He wants to stay. Doesn't want to move classes. 
Well then, I guess I can put my Momma bear freaking out don't you touch my child or I will drown your little grade 3 ass hat away then. I will be paying very close attention to the whole situation though.
Me?? What about me you ask?? Yuppers, not a lot going on with me. Well, I've probably spent way too much time beating up on myself for not doing several things I promised myself I would actually get done this summer. Oh and it's not little stuff like paint the kitchen cupboards that I moved so that they match the rest of the kitchen, oh helllllsss nooo. I'm  talking more about the whole, get in shape,quit smoking and cut back on the alcohol intake variety. One thing I have learned about myself over the past few months (OK maybe two things) 1. I lack self discipline. Which of course looking back now, I can say...well hell, that's not new! How do you think you got yourself into this situation in the first place?? Sheesh AA!
2. I may be lazy. And by that I mean, that it is easier to do what you know how to do than to implement something new. Again, please see 1 above for the explanation as to why I am where I am.
I know, poor, poor AA.... yes, yes, she's still all whoo hooo..
See I TOLD you ... same old same old!
Whoo hoo or not, It's nice to be back. I look forward to not just stalking your blogs!
Smooches